So, I’m fat. I’ve always been considered fat. I look back at pics of myself growing up, and I don’t look fat. But everyone in my life was always saying I was fat. I was the fat kid at school, made fun of often, chosen last in gym class. I was the fat kid at home, told daily by my parents, grandparents, siblings, aunts, uncles, cousins. “You’re fat, you need to lose weight.” I heard that so often! One time a classmate, looking straight at me, said “why do all fat people smell?” It sucked. It was hurtful. And it did NOTHING to help my self-esteem.
I tried diets and exercise, and of course nothing lasted more than a day or two. I didn’t know anything about food or nutrition. My mom didn’t cook, and pretty much the only food we had in the house came out of a box. Easy for kids to make, not very good for you. It took many years of having my own household before I learned how to cook healthy and nutritious foods.
But, as I said, looking back, I wasn’t fat. Maybe a little fluffy, but not fat. I didn’t actually become fat until after my second child was born, nearly 22 years ago. That’s when my thyroid decided it no longer wanted to function properly. That’s when I became fat. I gained 60 pounds in just a couple months! I was most definitely fat. I kept a lot of that weight on until exactly 10 years ago, when I was diagnosed with Type 2 Diabetes.
After being diagnosed with T2 Diabetes, I worked really hard and lost 55 pounds. I was back down to my high school weight! I was able to keep it off for about a year or so, but then I decided to quit smoking. I started putting some weight back on. I was exercising pretty hard to counteract the weight gain, and then I blew out a disk in my back. That was it. I gained all the weight back, plus some.
And here we are today. I walk. I have been walking nearly every day for 48 weeks now. I’ve lost 20ish pounds (on top of 15ish pounds a couple years back, with the help of a T2 drug my dr put me on). I’m still about 30 pounds heavier than my high school weight. This is why I’ve started this blog. I still need to work hard to get rid of these last 30 pounds. I am writing for accountability, for inspiration for myself and anyone that chooses to read this, and to track what I’ve done, what I’ve accomplished, and what I still need to do.
I hope you all enjoy my journey, and I hope to be an inspiration to others along the way.