Stupid virus

I’ve had a post in draft status for a while, but with everything going on in the world right now, I just couldn’t quite finish it. You see, it was about travel and how much I love to do it. And well, right now we’re all stuck at home.

Before all this completely exploded in the US, I was traveling. The first week of March every year, my family and I go to Orlando and spend a week in the sun, playing bingo, sitting by the pools, hitting the hot tub after dark, and drinking copious amounts of alcohol. While we were gone this year, coronavirus exploded in the US. A lot of cases were popping up daily, and toilet paper was flying off the shelves. It made me concerned to fly home, but I did, and I’m almost at the 2 week mark of being home, so I’m pretty sure I didn’t catch the nasty bug in the crowded airports.

This virus has affected me in several ways. One of the easiest to handle is staying home. I’m an introvert by nature, so not going anywhere is no big deal for me. I’ve also been working from home this week, as I do have a couple underlying conditions which puts me at a higher risk for complications. I have plenty of food (and toilet paper, lol) at home, so I can stay home a few weeks without having to venture out.

There is one GIANT way this virus is affecting me, and it could change the course of my entire life. In past postings, I’ve hinted about making a huge change in my life. I’m still not ready to divulge what it is, but for the past several months I’ve been working towards getting ready for that change. And now there is just a ton of uncertainty about whether or not this will happen. Really, this virus SHOULD prevent this from happening, but the powers-that-be haven’t called it yet. And they need to call it soon, so I can make a contingency plan. But if they don’t call it, should I? Should I just say nope, I’m not going to do it, and continue on with my same ole life? I so desperately don’t want to do that. I was so very much looking forward to this new adventure, I’ve been dreaming of doing this for so very many years. Theoretically, if I don’t do it now, I could always do it next year, but where will my life be next year? Would I be ok with giving up on my dream? But going forward, at least this year, would put me at a huge risk of catching the coronavirus. Sigh, what to do?! I am leaning towards not doing this now, and hoping that the opportunity exists next year. I am pretty sad about all of this.